brOken doLL

after three more semesters..

i'll be able to scream..

to shout...

But will I be ready to face the real world? Will I be able to tell what is real from what isn't? Will I be able to distinguish between people who are really good to me from those who would just want to use me?

I am excited.

I am thrilled.

And I can't wait..

But in the middle of the excitement, of the thrill, honestly... I am scared... Because in a matter of 1 and a half year, I'll be graduating. I will be independent. I will be free. But I am also scared. I am scared because I don't have any idea what will happen to me in the real world. I don't have any plans. Because up to now, I still don't know what I want to do with my life.

In a matter of one and a half year.. I would be alone. There won't be any friends whom you can go out during lunch time. No friends who will let you copy from their work whenever you forgot to do yours. There won't be the "good professors" who will extend the deadline of your project because you haven't finish yours. There wouldn't be removals or special assignments to have "bonus points" to make your grades higher. Because for me, in the real world, you are not allowed to make mistakes. After graduating, the mistakes I will make will not be seen in class cards.. But it will be seen on me. In my life. I am scared. I think I am not ready yet.

Will I make it?

Will I make it out of my cocoon safely?

Will I be a beautiful butterfly?

After getting out of my cocoon, will I be able to fly?

I hope so.....